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Well gee golly, I sure sound confused...Nora It's quite interesting. I don't think he has any idea. I've liked him for over three months now. Something about him seems different than the others. So different. I don't know if I ever will stop liking him. Well, obviously I will stop eventually, but I have no idea when. And it seems as though I could never stop loving him as a friend and as a person even after I stopped liking him in that way. But hey, I've probably said that about every guy I've liked, right? But Jose is different. He's just different. He's amazing. If you knew him, you'd see how he was different from other guys. He's just...Jose. I'm not sure what else to say. Something about him is compelling me to like him more and more everyday. He's so interesting and unusual...not you're every day average joe kinda guy. He's really sweet too. But, maybe I am just rambling. I've probably said this about every other guy and this one might not be any different. But he is. He really is. Is my mind playing a trick on me? Alex seemed different. I don't think he really was. He's pretty normal I'd say...well, maybe weird, but not a cool way. Jose really is different though. I can tell. He seems just so perfect. Does the mind deceive? Hell if I know. I mean sometimes it deceives and sometimes it's telling the truth and you can never tell. When the guy is awesome, the guy is awesome. When the guy really isn't that great, the mind deceives and makes you think he's more perfect than he is. But how can I be saying this about Jose? I know he is different, because other people know he is different. It's not just me. I know he's a great guy...because I know he makes an awesome friend. That I can be sure of. What I'm not sure of if whether or not my mind is making him out to be more perfect than he is. He's so amazing to me. Ya know what? I'm done. I definitely know Jose is an awesome and sweet guy. How can I even be questioning this? I don't even see why I was. He is definitely worth every second. I don't even see why I was going through this in my head. I guess I was just worrying because sometimes I'll like a guy and afterwards realize he wasn't that cool. But I can't think of many circumstance where Jose isn't a great guy. I am positive of how he is different than the others. Hm. Ya know what I hate? How little things can get to me. Little things guys do matter more than they should, but hey, I guess that's normal. Not to worry. I'm not really sure what I figured out from this entry...I think I just realized what I already knew...that Jose was different. I'm not sure what I mean by different, though. Ah, yes, now I remember. He is one of the guys I will continue to love as a friend even after I stop liking him in that way. Well, obviously. I don't even know why I was questioning that. Silly me. I even feel guilty now for questioning my friendship with him. Of course I will still love him. I am even contemplating deleting this entry because I regret saying what I said. Oh well. I guess i can leave it. It's not like Jose reads this. (Haha, if this were a movie it would be about a girl who writes in a diary and thinks no one reads it but actually the guy she likes finds it one day and reads this entry. Ooh ya know what would happen? It would be at school and she would have written this entry in her diary and then checked it to make sure it showed up. Then, she would accidentally leave the school computer with the diary entry still up. Jose would walk into the room, needing to use a computer, and would walk up to the same one. The first thing he would see would be "It's not like Jose reads this." His eyes would widen with interest and then an appropriate sound would be played in the background. Yeah. Ooh and then he would read all the entries and realize he was in love with her and ask her out. Hmmm...what a nice story. If only...nah... he's happy being with Anita, and I'm glad for him.) |