The only way is the naked way

Damn this, I'm NOT a whore...Nora
I bared all @ 5:41 pm on Tuesday, Apr. 27, 2004

I'm pissed off. I'm not quite sure wat triggered it. It's just everything in general that people have said about doing things with boys and PDA. I'm not a fucking whore, and I know that. What Jose and I do in the halls isn't breaking the rules of PDA. I see people all the time kissng in the halls. I don't care. People around me don't seem to care. Why does it seem like people seem to care more when it's me?

Ergh. It's just making me mad. I've talked to Marg and Nastia about it and they agree with me. I'm better now. It's just some of those people at TJ who make too big of a deal of it. Fucking conservative PDA views. Piss me off. Conservatives piss me off a lot. Oh well. Whatever. I know what I'm doing. I'm not a slut. But don't fucking keep talking about my PDA, because it doesn't matter. No one should care.

And Catelyn sort of knows what Jose and I have done because yesterday she asked if we had gone below the belt, and I'm bad at lying. So yeah. She knows. Today, we happened to be talking about it again (ergh) and I'm like
"err I'm a whore..." (expecting the answer: "ohh no you're not!")
and she's like
"well...yeah...but it's okay....uh....I like whores?"
and I'm like
"well if I am than he [Jose] is too"
(I said that 'cause I know Jose isn't a whore so that might get me off the hook) and she's like
"well he was with anita for six months and they didn't make out"
and I was like
"well that's cause she didn't want to"
and catleyn said something a long the lines of,
"well if you were with a guy who didn't want to, you would probably pressure him"
so I said
"no I wouldn't"
and she said
"well you'd break up with him"
so I said
"no I wouldn't"
so she said
"you would eventually"
so I was like
"well, yeah eventually"
and she said
"yeah and Jose and Anita went out for over six months."
I'm not sure if this was what she was trying to say, but it sure sounded like "Jose is a good boy, you're a dirty whore, and you forced him into whatever you did." Well ya know what? I don't care. I'm still completely comfortable with what I did. it's just other people who aren't. Well I don't care. Fuck other people. Fuck off. I'm gonna do what I feel comfortable doing. Sorry if I'm a "slut" in your book but ya know, if you didn't go to our prude school TJ you would realize that you are naive and a buuunch of people do way worse stuff than me. LEAVE ME ALONE.

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