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Where am I headed?...Nora Ya know what actually had been worrying me lately? My interests. I would attend school every day with intelligent TJ students, all having aspirations and such. Even if they didn't have aspirations, they were all especially good at one subject, or especially interested in one. They understood things in most classes more than I did. Basically, I just felt dumb. I knew people who could make computers and those who were experts in some computer language. there were also those who were incredible at Tech, those who could write amazingly, and those who could speak their foreign language impeccably. I was good at math, but still, that didn't cut it. It seemed that a lot of people found math to be easy, so thinking that it was extra easy still didn't make things seem right. And even those who weren't particularly good in certain subjects, either played a lot of sports, were very good at drama, or extremely skilled musically. I felt like there was nothing going for me. Becca plays piano, violin, and can sing well. Jeewon is rather good at drama. Jose is in three AP classes and is very fluent in two languages. Mike is awesome with computers and does all this stuff with them. Baiyin and Lili can program HTML really well. Some people in my IBET are just awesome at everything. Tim can get things done really easily and quickly. And even out of school, people seemed to be doing better than me. Julia is so good at Spanish...great writer, too. I just felt like I wans't going anywhere. I still sort of feel that way. My interests are my social life and my grades aren't very good. I'm unmotivated, lazy, and apathetic. Good ol' me. I tried to find something I was interested in. People. People was all I could think. I love people. I am constantly bursting with love in my heart for friends and others. I have to stop myself from expressin it sometimes so it doesn't seem weird. So...I guess I'm saying that I like psychology. I want to study the mind. I want to be with people. I love people. All kinds. I think it would be interesting to be a psychologist. I don't know though...I don't think 'people' counts as an interest. Everyone is interested in their social life. Oh well. Whatever gets me to sleep at night. Speaking of sleep....time to finish homework.... |