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Time goes by and I realize, that I’m alright You thought nothing would be the same But life comes round again...Marg I just finished watching The Hours. It was a really good movie. I tried reading it this summer on the way home from the beach way back in July, but I couldn't. I had too much on my mind back then. It was a week before I was moving and DJ had just told me he loved me. Something I had been waiting to hear for an awful long time. But, back to the hours. Good movie. It just sort of scares me and I don't know why. I guess it makes me afraid of becoming old. Not nessicarily dying, but being old. I am afraid that I will be all alone when I am old. And my life will be trivial. My day will consist of getting flowers and visiting my old sick friend. I'm afraid that my life will have no more meaning. It's silly to worry about that, though, isn't it? I mean, I'm only fourteen years old. I haven't even lived through two decades yet. My life really hasn't begun, has it? Soon, I will be on my own. I will make something of myself and start a family. That will be my new life, won't it? My life will be raising my children. Everything just happens so fast, though. I was only a 5th grader when I left. I knew nothing. I was a dork. I am so much more mature...and now I'm in High school. It all happened so fast in just four years. I think of what I want my life to be like. I want to marry early. But after college. It just seems like before I know it, I'll be in my 30s. It's silly isn't it? I'm not even in my 20's. I still have over 5 years until that. Yet, looking on it, it seems like it will happen so fast. And one day I'll wake up and I'll be in another life. |